When you are afraid of losing something, you are actually forgetting that in reality, in this world, not a single thing is yours, not even yourself.

Everything is impermanent and will eventually change or pass away. When we fear losing something, we are essentially fearing the loss of something that we never truly owned in the first place.

Letting go of the fear of loss is hard. Is it possible to appreciate the moment without fear of loss?

Whispers in the Night

Doubt fills my mind

In the dead of night

Keeping me awake

And making me weak

A thousand voices in my head

Questioning my choices

Leaving me overwhelmed

By inner noises

In the silence of the night

With a feeling of hesitation

And unanswered questions

I cry for the same reasons.

Grateful

I remember the first day,

When you came to my house.

A special day, unlike any other. 

Starting a new chapter, my life anew.

You came, timid and afraid,

Crying through the night, I couldn’t bear.

Despite my illness, I chose to be with you.

You follow me around,

Sad eyes when I head to work each day,

A happy welcome when I return.

Sleep by my side every night.

I love to talk to you,

Even if my words you can't understand.

When I'm down, your gentle massage,

Brings me comfort, meaning so much.

I know it is not always happy, 

At times, you are a bit annoying

But getting mad? I can't.

Your cuteness is beyond compare.

Writing this as you peacefully sleep.

Grateful for you, my heart has said.

Thank you for the trust you have shown,

My dear cat, Curly.

Unexpected

Sometimes things happen beyond our expectations, leaving us feeling disappointed. While sadness is a part of the journey, and it is okay to feel that way. Don’t let your sadness stop you from having a better future. There are many good opportunities waiting for you ahead.

I want you to know that you don’t have to face this alone,

I’m here, and always be here for you.

Cita-cita

Hari Minggu lalu, aku mengikuti program menjadi volunteer untuk bermain bersama anak-anak di asrama. Kami memperkenalkan dan memainkan permainan tradisional dengan harapan mereka dapat bermain di luar tanpa terlalu banyak bergantung pada gadget.

Saat itu, kami juga membuat gambar dan menulis cita-cita di sebuah layangan. Aku diam-diam mengamati tulisan mereka. Ada yang bercita-cita menjadi pilot, dokter, pemain bola, atau bahkan hanya ingin membuat orang tua mereka bahagia. Saat itu, aku mencoba mengingat kembali apa cita-citaku sewaktu kecil.

“Apa cita-cita kamu?”

Ketika masih kecil, pertanyaan itu dapat dijawab dengan mudah tanpa ada rasa ragu. Namun, seiring berjalannya waktu, pertanyaan itu menjadi semakin sulit untuk dijawab. Mungkin sebagian ada yang merasa kehilangan arah, tidak yakin apa yang sebenarnya ingin dicapai, seperti daun yang terapung di sungai tanpa arah yang pasti. Namun, apakah kita bisa kembali seperti anak kecil? Ketika berani bermimpi tinggi, meskipun belum tahu bagaimana cara mewujudkannya tanpa terhambat oleh pikiran negatif yang meragukan.

Semoga mereka tidak pernah takut bermimpi untuk meraih cita-cita mereka. Biarlah mereka melayang dalam perjalanan kehidupan. Meraih cita-cita layaknya menerbangkan layangan yang akan terbang tinggi di udara. Aku berharap jika ada saatnya layangan itu putus, mereka dapat memperbaikinya atau menciptakan layangan baru yang lebih baik, melepaskannya kembali ke udara, dan terus terbang menuju cita-cita mereka.